Tuesday 26 July 2011

Day 1

Today was the first day without sugar and it was a hell of a lot harder then I thought it would be.

I have managed to last the whole day without any sugar, I'm really proud of myself I wanted to give in so badly but thanks to a wonderful friend who has supported me and I have done it I lasted day one.

The downside was the killer headaches, being really sleepy and OMG the cravings and trying to work out what does and doesn't have sugar in it.

I know I can do this and I'm really proud of myself for lasting the whole day with no sugar

Wednesday 20 July 2011

the 2 week challange

I am preparing myself to go 2 weeks with NO sugar 0_0 and No carbs, I"m trying to get over my addiction to them and see if I will have more energy and more patience with my kids especially come the afternoon.

I am currently working through what I will need to purchase so that i can you know actually eat in the next fortnight. I'm also wondering if the kids will notice the lack of sugar/carbs in their diet and how they will therefore react and if their behaviour will change. I"m really hoping it will.

I know instead of mashed potato I'm going to do puréed cauliflower and can add a bit of cheese to make it creamier, the carbs i can find other things to much on or serve instead of but the one thing i'm really struggling with is the sugar, I drink a LOT of ice coffee milk and I'm struggling with the thought of going 1 day let alone 2 weeks with no ice coffee.

I plan on starting next Tuesday as that gives me time to prepare and also get over my daughters birthday party and go shopping.

Monday 18 July 2011

Its over

I don't have a choice anymore when it comes to giving birth.  My beautiful midwife has been forced out of practice due to the bull shit regulations and the stupid AMA.

So my "choices" are to have no more children or free birth and neither option appeals to me, I'm hating that the government has taken away my rights and my choice.  I want more children, I want to home birth again I dont want to get back on the convayer belt that is the hospital birthing system.

My career choice has been taken away from me as I want to be a midwife, a homebirth midwife one like the most amazing woman in the world who taught me to trust myself and my bodies ability to birth my baby.  She taught me so much and I wanted to give that to other women but I will not jump through the bull shit hoops the government/AMA have come up with to try and stop women from having empowering births.

Sunday 17 July 2011

My life in repeat

Living in the world of repeat is my life.  My mother has altzhimers and I spend my day answering the same question over and over again.
I would love to know what goes on in her head in 1 hour and 20 mins she came up and asked the same question 10 times and it gets frustrating for me but how must she feel.
She has lived in this house for over 40 years but yet she doesn't remember that she lives here and often asks when she will be going home. How would you feel looking around a house you have lived in for years raised your children and grandchildren in, not remember 2 of your grand children being born IN this house and having now clue where you are.
She often introduces me as her mother instead of her daughter and that is how it feels at times that I have another child.
I have been thinking about this all day and have come to the conclusion that home schooling is not going to happen, as opposed to home birthing that makes perfect sense as I didn't have to leave her but home schooling is just not going to work for us at this time.

Friday 15 July 2011

The start

I have been having a number of Apennines lately generally while cleaning the house and this is a place for me to express them and allow you all to follow my journey.

I am looking at moving my eldest daughter from traditional schooling to home schooling/natural learning. There are benefits to swapping and there are benefits to continuing with school.

I have got a number of friends who support me and my decision to take her out of school and "unschooling" her but then I have a lot of mainly family but some friends who think this is the biggest mistake I could possibly make.  How do I make this decision? How do I know what is best for my daughter?

How do I keep everyone happy these are just some of the things I will be working through